Monday 27 December 2010

The candle lights of Chirstmas have extinguished as those for whom birthday is today lights up.

18 years have passed since I was born a baby in East Shore Hospital in 27 December 1992. Being the youngest in my family, I naturally received lots of showers of love and care from my family. I cannot remember much of my baby life, only bits and pieces here and there and it's less than brief. I guess that's natural for all of us. I don't remember myself as a baby playing with toys, but I remember how I learned to walk. Thinking back now, life's greatest lesson is your first lesson of humankind: to learn to walk. Every time you fall, yes it hurts, but you must bring yourself again and continue trying till you succeed. Interesting, isn't it?

I can briefly recall my time in nursery and kindergarten whereby I have fun with my then friends but we never meet again after that. Then comes primary education whereby I studied in Temasek Primary School. Initially located at New Upper Changi Road, currently located at Bedok South Avenue 3. I can remember the bad part of my primary school days mostly as there weren't really much good ones. I find my life there pretty neutral. Probably I should thank these bad memories as they did help me in some way or another.

Scored 245 for PSLE. Pretty good score in my opinion. Went to Chung Cheng High Main School for my secondary education. I managed to barely scraped through O levels as I really suck at humanities subjects and my English language wasn't very impressive either. There, I met my bunch of weird logic friends whom still maintain close contact with me today. I also had friends with more normal logic but are also more bimbo-tic and more enthusiastic in gatherings

With a mere 17 L1R5 points, I came to Serangoon Junior College, but with not much regrets. For more information, please read the blog archive. It's basically my diary of my rich life in this awesome school , I'm kinda lazy to summarise it here.

My motto of life is to live without regrets. Should I have any regrets in life before, I will never commit the act that made me regretted again. BYE~~~

Wednesday 22 December 2010

I suddenly feel like working. But I don't know what to work as. I am especially interested in human behavior and psychology and detective work nowadays. Maybe it is just because I watched too much detective shows over the past few days. After finishing all these detective shows, I don't know what to do next, aimless again in life. About 1 and a half month left to NS. Such a long period of time. Working part-time does seems like a good idea. But I don't to work just for the money or mere experience in work-life. I want to work for my personal interest. But I don't think I can find such jobs in Singapore, especially part-time.

I know I haven't grown up much yet, and there's this self-perception that I am still a child. I know I haven't fully understand the purpose of life yet and I know neither do you readers. I wish there isn't this forced army thing, for I want the time to explore the world to find that purpose of my life. Sometimes I do agree with my friend's weird but magnificently logical theories about this world. Perhaps the truth hurts more than the lie, but I prefer chasing for the truth.

An aimless bee will bang itself into the wall, thereby hurting itself. But no matter how times it hurts itself, it will always find its path back to its hive. Never give up in life, home is always the sanctuary u find best. My theory. BYE~~~

Tuesday 14 December 2010

Impersonating people seems to be my forte. Monkey sees, monkey does. Same idea.

Anyway, that's not the point of this post. Recently watched some detective dramas and found interest in human behavior. Fate does seem to know how to work its way around. I have been an observer for a long long time and recent dramas watched brought me the interest to deepen my understanding and interest in human behavior. Elated that I have something that can finally interest me over the holidays, a sharing here should be done. :)

Regrettably, passport extension is not successful and a new passport is to be made, rendering the trip to Bali with my family not possible. Maybe it is a good thing, my prophecies seem to be true sometimes. Probably just Deja Vu. Anyway, I'm going to get books on human behavior and enjoy them over the holidays. BYE~~~

Saturday 11 December 2010

When I piece everything together, I finally realised what was happening that is about me. I'm trusting my instincts. Guess I won't say much here. Watched many dramas on pps to live through the week. Don't know what's next. BYE~~~

Thursday 9 December 2010

Life is so boring when there's nothing to do. I stay at home look at com, thinking what I should play. Every game that flashed through my brain was marked boring. I turn on the TV look through the menu for the different channels. Many are repeats. I read books to pass my days, yet when I stop, there's nothing to do again. I miss the studying days. Somehow, I think A levels is not that difficult. What's difficult is the life after that. BYE~~~

Monday 6 December 2010

Dreams are for people to chase dreams are the things that keep people alive, probably not sane but definitely alive, be it a short-term or a long-term one.

Just when I really started to understand the world and when my life was filled with fun and laughter, a sudden feeling of emptiness filled me. Yes, exams are over. Celebrated it. Had a fun-filled time for the past few days. But now as friends are starting to fly all over the world, I remain in Singapore as usual but this time restlessly. I just can't find anything to do. I can't find the joy in games anymore either. I suddenly just find life so boring. I feel that I'm losing my sanity, but I'm consciously holding on to it.

They don't have to say it, but I know people are shunning me and definitely finding me weird or something since I can't find what's wrong with being quiet. F.M.L. BYE~~~

Thursday 2 December 2010

It's over. Officially.

This week's schedule is very packed. Today is the only day off for me to come here to blog. First, a summary of what happened and what's going to happen over the week.

29/11/2010

Physics P1 in the afternoon which marks the end of it all officially. Then went to Jun Zhe's new house, awesomely beautiful place, for steamboat, mahjong, texas poker and asshole Big 2.

30/11/2010

Went shopping to complete my prom clothes, basically a tie and a pair of shoes which can still be used in future. Then went to chalet for BBQ, COD, some mahjong, some PS3 games and then watch the sunrise which is blocked by clouds.

1/12/2010

Went to Kbox with FG friends. Knew more songs and am downloading them now. Then went back chalet for night cycling.

2/12/2010

Here I am, blogging after a good sleep.

3/12/2010

Prom night. Should be damn awesome. Probably the last day to see my 2s16 mates before they fly here and there around the world. Maybe followed by Kbox.

4/12/2010

Movie and dinner with S*STAR people but I think mostly JC2s next year.

5/12/2010

WWS from 11am to the evening, ending with some celebration or whatever.

Then I suppose I shall enjoy my break at Singapore for the rest of the month.

Here comes a bit of emotional stuffs.

As usual, I'm sensing some things about me, based on instincts. The feeling is getting stronger. So be it. Sometimes I feel like going to a corner of a room and just cry out loud. I'm tired of putting up a strong front, yet I can do nothing but only show an expressionless face. I feel that I'm losing friends yet I can do nothing about it. I try my best to savage friendships. I quietly controlling my temper. Sometimes I wish I can just release my control over it, but the consequences are unimaginable.

I want to take a break for now. I have had enough. BYE~~~

Friday 19 November 2010

Econs P1 is over. Die or not, I have done it and not going to think about it again. Looking forward to the end of P2.

After leaving compass point with some chat with the guys and solving Shannon' phone problem (though in the end it was only his inbox too many msgs), I took a long ride home. While reading Harry Potter and listening to some music, a thought changed my life. Everyone is unique, it doesn't matter if u do the wrong things, there's no need to think how this person or how that person thinks of u, u are just urself, u know urself best. There's no need to be brooding over things that u cannot interfere with. Probably sympathise with ur friends when they are in hard times, but u can never interfere their life. So just think positively and live happily in the way u want. I am going to be myself. BYE~~~

Thursday 18 November 2010

I guess I'm abit too anti-social. Oh well, I guess my life is bounded by loneliness. BYE~~~

Wednesday 17 November 2010

5 more papers left, of which 2 are what I fear most. Almost is nothing. I shall make it to the university with AAB/AC. B for Econs and C for GP. Can't wait for Econs P2 to end. Damn it. BYE~~~

Sunday 24 October 2010

Sorry for the long wait for this graduation day message.

2 years have passed. SO QUICKLY!!!! Coming to SR was kinda expected in my case even though it is my 3rd choice. I was pretty much indifferent to coming to SR because to me, it's just going to another school again. But I still remember that it was the P who said that our noise is the youthful voice or something like that. That made me start to enjoy going to the school then. Made a great fall during JC1. Pretty much regretted making that fall then. Mugged through the period and managed to get promoted. PW was pretty much painful but quite enjoyable during the OP period. Managed to make friends in 1s18'09 and they really made my days then. Even though I don't really stay in touch with most of them now. But I must say a very big thank you to the people in 1s18. You guys really opened my eyes of the world.

Then come this year. From what I heard from Ben, my osl, JC2 will be the year where people really just go with their own cliques. But 2s16'10, the legend class, has proven him wrong! This awesome class of 2s16'10 is totally fun-filled. I believe never is there a class like ours. We mug together, play together and eat together. Never is there a day I'm not prepared to laugh like crazy in school. I think 2s16'10 is likely to continue to bond like this in future. I will never forget the days where we tend to be bullying the teachers such as Mr Desmond Lee and Ms Khiew. The graduation day just passed 2 days ago and I think I didn't make the effort to do this but I'll do it here. Thank you 2s16 for that all you have done for me. I will always love you guys and never forget you.

Thank you SRJC for the 2 years you let me stay in. You let me make great friends and let me have fun. If given the choice again, I will make SRJC the 1st one!!!

This is likely to be the last post before A levels end. The last thing to say here is: sorry for the inconvenience and the offences I have caused to you guys.

An official farewell to SRJC and 2s16'10 and 1s18'09. BYE~~~

Sunday 17 October 2010

Today shall be the final day of slack! I swear! Today went out with secondary school friends to play pool and eat dinner. Quite fun :D Oh, I'm so going to swear to slim down. Tomorrow I shall execute the plan towards the finale. Oh, I would be getting a prize from JC, wonder what it is about though. Lolx, probably for me continually topping H1 physics throughout the year? Haha, nvm what it is, going on stage makes the shy me blush XD

Kk, that's about it. Tomorrow still have PreA levels. BYE~~~

Saturday 16 October 2010

This is the schedule for A levels for my combination. :)

Week 1

9/11/10: H2 Chemistry P3 9647/03 1400-1600

10/11/10: H1 GP P1 and P2 8806/01 and 8806/02 0800-1145

11/11/10: H2 Mathematics P1 9740/01 0800-1100

12/11/10: H2 Mathematics P2 9740/02 0800-1100

Week 2

16/11/10: H2 Chemistry P2 9647/02 0800-1000

18/11/10: H1 Physics P2 8866/02 1400-1600

19/11/10: H2 Economics P1 9732/01 1430-1645

Week 3

22/11/10: H2 Chemistry P1 9647/01 1400-1500

23/11/10: H2 Economics P2 9732/01 1400-1615

Week 4

29/11/10: H1 Physics P1 8866/01 1400-1500

O.o Week 1 to 4, the total number of papers go from 4 to 1. Lolx. I just received information that 21 days left to the beginning of A levels. The plan to finale: Everyday do either 1 math or chem or physics papers, followed by 1 Gp and 1/2 econs essay or 1 Gp P1 or 1 econs P2. Focus for chem: P3 time trials, followed by P2 time trials, followed by P1 time trials. Focus for math: complex then time trials. Focus for GP: Skill working. Focus for Physics: Time trial for P2 then P1 after P2 ended. Focus for Econs: Drqs skills and time trials followed by essays time trials. Hmm...that's about it. A common recipe for all but the success depends on the person.

Probably with 2 or more days of good rest. BYE~~~

Thursday 7 October 2010

Behind every scar, there's always a story behind it. We should never despise anyone with scars on them.

The paradox of life: As we start to clear the mist in some parts of our life, but at the same time, we brought about more mist into our life. What's true and what's false, I'm starting to lose my abilities to identify which is which.

2s16-the legend class (quote from Sigit). The best class I have ever been in before. Lots of laughter, lots of fun and lots of encouragement amidst the stress we face during the preparations for A levels. I really really would not want to end A levels and come back again. No doubt if I cannot make it to the universities, I would have to come back and join a class. But I would highly doubt I would ever get another class of friends who can make laughter out of almost everything and almost anything and so miraculously well-united as stated by Ms Zeenat. It's a torture in disguise of the blessing for a 2nd chance.

Another 30 days left to A levels. I'm panicking for my GP especially. My short answers slightly improved, but my essay is really what worries me. As for physics, probably I need to take out some time to practise it once in awhile, I've somehow turned rusty in this subject. As for Math, well, other than practise, it's still about practise, there's nothing else I can do about it. For Chem, currently coping well with fear for planning only. Last but not least Econs, I need to train up the skill for scoring well in Econs. There's so much to do but there's so little time left.

When chemicals don't collide, never force it.

Tomorrow's gonna be a heavy day. Need sleep. BYE~~~

Saturday 25 September 2010

Counting down to 5 weeks before the battle starts.

I feel tired. I'm starting to lose faith nowadays. Apparently and unknowingly, I'm going back to the past me again. Living in uncertainties sucks. Never before have I felt so useless and helpless. I don't even know what I do offends people or not. Sometimes, when I think I offend others unknowingly, I feel so guilty even though I know sometimes they don't mind. I don't know if it's just me, but I find that I would miss my friends from JC more than my primary and secondary school friends. Damn it, I don't want to lose any more friends. BYE~~~

Tuesday 21 September 2010

While I'm still awake, I decided to post some stuffs here. Passed these 2 days in pain, depriving of my usual afternoon nap. Oh, but I finally got my MP3 or MP4, whatever you call it, but YAYNESS!!!

Based on intuition, something is definitely off and I think I know what it might be about. I'm waiting for the day when someone decides to tell me or when I finally find the chance and probably a better phrasing of what I wish to understand to avoid harming friendships.

To one of my best friend in SRJC (if he were to read this): I wished I could be of help, but I'm afraid that I am deemed to be too kaypo. But don't be too stressed, you always got me (I sound so desperate to want to know =.=) and boon and htht group and many of your close friends you can speak to, like duh. As of now, I can only tell you to focus on A levels but don't be too stressed. Hmm, it feels so like last year, if you know what I mean.

Darn, still can't find a less offensive way of expressing myself as much as I try to avoid doing so. Oh well, trying is the only way out. Hmmm, probably I am a little too proud recently......BYE~~~

Tuesday 14 September 2010

I feel weird and I think I'm acting weirdly recently, but I was told I wasn't weird. Hmm, probably just thinking too much then. Probably I'm feeling that sense of guilt towards my teachers and classmates. I'm sensing some things but probably I'm really thinking too much. Ahh, I'm damn tired....BYE~~~

Wednesday 7 September 2010

Just got back Prelim results.

GP: S :( I'm going to work on it.

H1 Physics: A :) Didn't expect this since I got my P2 results, thought would get a B at most.

H2 Econs: E :) Finally pass it, even though the marker was kinda lenient for my essay qn 4 actually.

H2 Math: D :( Getting worse. I better buck up.

H2 Chem: B :) I'm happy over this.

PW: B

MT: A

Overall: 60+, Almost there and I really need to pick up my pace already. BYE~~~

Saturday 4 September 2010

I really want to believe we never walk alone, but somehow, I find my future to be quite lonely. Sigh~~~ we may be laughing together, playing together, eating together and mugging together now, but what happens after that? What's gonna happen after A levels? Probably play together and stuffs. Then NS will come and new friends will appear. And then we split again to work. And then family and stuffs. People can come together easily but it feels so difficult to split as emotions come into play. I just wonder if we will recognise each other along the street as we walk through our life 10 years down the road. I just wonder if we will continue to have gatherings 10 years later. Oh, I will miss all these laughings and fun that I'm having now. This isn't One Piece where we have a common aim to move towards and journey together and stuffs. Hmm, probably it's because I feel aimless. Haiz, emotions at play. Well, well, we'll see about that when the time comes then, BYE~~~

Saturday 28 August 2010

WEEEE!!!! BBQ and rockband at Max's house was awesome to the max. Many thanks to the people who joined too! :D Htht was also great for me to know what's really going on around me. And I realised that it's in fact not what I did that made people upset, it's just that they have some personal problems which really upsets them. Bah, there are some areas which I cannot help anyway and this reminds me of the new movie coming up soon. Oh and I just thought that perhaps whatever problems we face in life is just another challenge God gave us, we have to go through it and avoidance will just bring it up again in future.

Prelims are finally over and it indeed called for a celebration as we worked our ass off for at least the past month. But, it really ain't over yet. 72 days to A levels. I need to work on GP and Econs.

Got myself a jigsaw puzzle to play with over the break. :D And I'm gonna get a music player asap, life sucks without music. BYE~~~

Saturday 21 August 2010

A jack of all trades, a master of none I am.

I find myself too straightforward at times, probably it's still better to keep quiet at times.

Very shiok after basketball and having lunch at Pizza Hut but after that, I didn't do much work, productive inefficient. Nothing to do now. BYE~~~

Friday 20 August 2010

Walked through this week's exam with a breeze and ended today with basketball.

Let's talk about GP 1st. It's weird, I'm always doing environment questions for P1 and yeap, I did it again. I think I will pass P1 since the last I got 24/50 even though I only had 2 arguments. P2 is an unknown factor. Probably I will make it, I'm unsure of AQ and a few questions here and there, so hopefully I'm going to pass GP this time round!!!

Next is Econs. Kinda screwed up the essays especially the 3rd one, anyhow did it. Drq today was okay. The issue was just time management, somehow i always no time to do the last part which is worth a lot of marks. Probably will pass and get at least an E!!!!! I want that E, I'm always stucked at S.

Next is Chem. This week only got P3 and I didn't really had much problems with it, most probably will get A to B for this paper. But I know P2 and P1 is going to kill big time, I'm gonna chiong for it.

Next is Physics. P2 is considerably super easy for me. Even people such as Shannon and Chun Qian said it was a passable and I guess we were actually expecting something much more difficult than Mid years. P1 is bound to be tricky, so I'm gonna practise it after Chem P1.

Last but not least, Math. It was a killer, evidence from when Mr Anuar asked the cohort if we found it easy and no one raised their hands. Lost about 40+ marks from don't know how to do. I'm gonna pracitse for P2 and make sure I get A for it. Darn it.

Tomorrow's gonna play basketball again! Yayness, I think the whole group of us are getting more and more addicted to basketball.

Time to lepak one corner. BYE~~~

Tuesday 10 August 2010

Weeeeeee YOG torch came to our school today at the expense of our study time though. Pui, today I'm so unproductive, especially the YOG thing and lunch. Fell asleep only after doing 1 math question. Woke up and struggled with the paper. I pui somemore. But the paper was freaking hard, really brings me the need to ask for consultation, I swear. Tomorrow got school. I pui further. Puiing reminds me of Thanksgiving's dracula who said: Those vampires whose body glows in the moonlight, I spit on them! Lolx, epic funny. Haizz, prelim in 1 week, a bit scared and a little bit not so.

Yikes, today is lunar 7th month, better be careful when out in the night. BYE~~~

Just heard that the epic dance math dept did was called the windshield wiper dance. Thanksgiving concert was a total awesome. Really relieves our stress levels that we accumulated while preparing for A levels.

I don't know is it because of stress or what, but my rashes are starting to become more vicious these days. I don't know why but recently, I just again became that quiet little guy that sits at one corner but just with a bit more enthusiasm this time round. Somehow, I just feel that in these 2 years in SR, I gained some friendships and lost some along the way. I got this guts feeling that I'm maintaining a very fragile relationship with all my friends and I'm just trying my best to sustain these friendships. I guess I am just one aloof person that can hardly maintain really very good friendships with many except a few.

I don't know whether I should be happy or sad. I feel so relaxed. Bye~~~

Saturday 31 July 2010

Dadadadalalalalala, lalalaladadadadada. Rhythm stuck in my head, but I don't know the lyrics and the song name.

Woots~~WillRun 2010 ended with a yummy steamboat buffet. Though disappointed with myself only running the miserable 7km, I finally realised how weak my legs are. Probably when I can catch the timing, I shall catch up with the leg training, temporarily, I shall do push ups and sit ups in the morning to build up the core muscles.

Last week was completely treacherous, 4 tests for 4 consecutive days, do work and study until mind breaking soon. Gotta catch a good sleep tonight and wake up tomorrow to finish some revision. BYE~~~~

Monday 26 July 2010

Imagine someone one day suddenly tells you that you are expelled from the school while you were preparing for A levels, and you go home thinking you had finally gained back your freedom and went ahead to be crazy for the rest of the day. The next day you woke up just to find that you got no one with you as your friends and teachers are still busy preparing for A levels and then you just don't know what to do.

This is the particular weird dream I had today. Though weird, it made me think that I haven't thought of something to do after the As. It's as if after the A levels, I'm gonna be all alone and don't know what to do next, ouch. The best part of the day: I woke up thinking whether I was expelled or not.

Today did a Physics MCQ and omg, careless brought me to a 17/30. Crap, need to polish my physics already. Oh well, already made plans, thus, it's really a need to sleep now before I lose sleep again. BYE~~~~

Saturday 24 July 2010

Zzz, I seriously swear that Hua Zhen is damn weird. 1st word: Hello. 2nd line onwards are telling me what she's going to write for SGC. Talk so much then ask: are you going to add in WWS into the SGC?

Me: Nope, no point.

HZ: Ben put it in, I follow his sample lol. I took of pic of his SGC ma. LOL!!! I got edit abit la. He didn't even state his president post. haha..it just said active volunteer

Me: He got. But the teacher removed it.

HZ: oh why? then become was an active volunteer with WWS for about 2 yrs.D: [my thoughts: please, when he told me, u were around too.]

Me: Yea, tt's why no point putting.

HZ: how you knw? can la, i'm quite committed, u shld put too, you see yee liang got put or not, he doesn't need to write anymore this yr [my thoughts: you think i dun knw?]

Me: it's actually not an achievement, more like an activity lor (trying to tell her why i not putting)

HZ: at least you serve the community

Me: ya, but you dun serve the community so that you can put smth into the SGC

HZ: i know....[my thoughts: if you know, you wouldn't tell me the previous line]

What the shit.-.- She's so freaking weird.

Anyway, that's not the point about me logging in and complaining. The main things start from here.

Crap, 3 weeks more to Prelims, 13 more weeks to A levels. P talk today was kinda interesting. He taught us how to plan and what is a study group. A study group is not just a group of people studying together, but a group of people who help one another to grasp contents in the shortest time possible.

Kinda over relaxed again today. Going to make plans to SCORE in A levels now. BYE~~~

Monday 19 July 2010

Zzz. Cant sleep again. Anyway, since it's been awhile, I decided to post.

I received the letter about the goals on Friday. Super touching, but the only personalized letter comes from Ms Khiew and it is the first time Ms Khiew act cute with me la. I guess that the tutors must be utterly disappointed with me these few weeks. From what they have told me, apparently, they have high hopes in me. I really must must must put myself to do work already, from today onwards.

I have been thinking. But I think I missed something somewhere in my life. I also wonder how would my life have been if I knew that it was just a mere crush and not act impulsively. Painfully regrettable. Bah.

Oh, I just realised 2 of my juniors in the same class are already dating and it is so damn obvious when they try to make it not. Haha.

Life's a bitter when I am alone nowadays. Ever since I got more friends around me, it's hard to stay alone. Darn.

Hopefully, before I enter army, I can celebrate my 18th birthday. Then, I will post something really worth reading in this blog. Till then......bye.

Thursday 8 July 2010

Spain won 1 nil today. Some people told me it is expected, some not, whatever, I'm not an expert in soccer anyway, I just enjoy the atmosphere.

A few things happened that set me back to think about how people really think about me (once more?). I realised a few things: Some people are really disgusted by my actions. Some people are not as angry over my words and stuffs as I thought them to be. Some people are really disappointed in me. I can tell and feel, I'm not a block of wood afterall. The ice between us is still so big, it doesn't seem to melt easily as time passes. This is really frustrating, it really makes situations awkward and I always tend to avoid it. Crap, I'm so disappointed in myself in this part. Sometimes, I really wonder what should I do to break this big block of ice.

This week was quite a breeze with loads of tiredness. Crappy life I have, insomnia is not curing itself, homework is kinda manageable till now. I gotta start revision next week already. Need sleep now. Bye~~~~

Sunday 4 July 2010

A ferocious week is over with much luck. Crap, 3 chem papers, 4 physics papers and one econs file to settle within these few days. But it is good in a way, as I will be able to revise as I do these papers. That's the best part as I totally forgot a lot of things after holidays. 6 weeks more to prelims! I really gotta cut down on procrastination and start revising. My own analysis: For maths, basically start by revising paper 1 1st because the school is going through stats now and make sure to listen attentively during lectures. Do 1 paper, 1 or 2 doesn't matter, but there must be a balance by prelims, per week. Sure can get quality grades if the foundations can be built up quickly within these few weeks. For chem, a bit of a hassle because some answers learnt during atomic structure have to changed and mastered asap. Going through papers is the best way to revise because can recap and revise and also see where you are now. 1 full paper a week should suffice for a quality grade too. For econs, well, like what was said by Mrs Sim, grasp content well and master the skills. 1 essay and 1 drq per week is a must. For physics, well, make a booklet of important formulas and important definitions. Just do 1 full paper a week should suffice also as the phrasing of some explanation can also be mastered at the same time. For Gp, it is a do or die. So it is a must to practice 1 essay and 1 compre per week as well and on top of that, there is a need to read more papers for more information. Hmm, it seems so nice of me to show how I study. Anyway, this is an efficient way of studying as it is time saving and more effective in grasping content and mastering skills. By the way, I know why I am mean already and am regrettably sorry to say some things without thinking to others, so so sorry. But sometimes, I must say that true words that hurts the ears are yet those words that will are most beneficial in one way or the other (chinese proverb).

I must bear this in mind: Never expect others to think in the way I think and accept what I say and do. Crap, if the teachers are not so picky about homework, I can just do things in my stride. But for now, I gotta catch up with all the homework that I have not done over the holidays. Treat it as if prelims is next week and work your ass off. BYE~~~

Saturday 26 June 2010

If you can return to the past and change something, when will you return to? I actually did something that I regretted until now, and yet my motto in life is to live with no regrets. Greatly regretted.

Today is the 21st Golden Melody Award ceremony and it's the countdown of 2 days b4 school reopens. Darn it, loads of homework left undone and the best thing is I can't find my Econs book=.=. Oh, I think I didn't post this before, I'm extremely disappointed over my Math paper 2 results, a total downfall of my Math results. Freaking disappointed, although I know some people are more worse off than me.

Gahh~~~feeling super guilty for not doing any work over the holidays. BYE~~~

Thursday 17 June 2010

Wheee~~~I'm back from chalet. Only 3 words to describe it: SO DAMN FUN! 1st night was BBQ, the chicken wings were the best as usual, finger-licking food^^. Ms Khiew came down to join us and things were fun when others suan here and there in front of her. After Ms Khiew left, we played circle of death with light beer, 1st round was fine because it's something new, 2nd round was a killer because we played 2 decks and things get more and more boring when we can't think of something to say. 2nd day left early because I have to help out at the Marina Bay's resort's opening ceremony. Freak, wasted 3 hrs there but I heard that I was going to be paid, so ya, didn't really mind it in the end. Reached chalet just nice when they were about to leave for arcade and then night biking. I swear the bike sucks for 14 bucks, having problem to speed=.= After that, 4 tai mahjong. Wah, like finally get to play minimum high tai in chalet. But after a few rounds, all of us become very tired. The next thing we know, we have to book out of the chalet and return the bikes. Bloody hell, they never say when they are opening and we waited for about 3 hrs b4 they came. Played truth while waiting and went to see the pitiful horses at the stables. Went to White Sands to have breakfast and played abit of arcade before leaving. Reached home at about 2pm and omg, this is the smoothest 6 hrs sleep I ever had in the past few weeks. Ahh, good sleep makes life wonderful. BYE~~~

Tuesday 22 June 2010

Dang. Can't sleep. The brain just doesn't want to stop thinking about some past events.

School is going to reopen soon! And I have not even done much homework. Gonna wait till chalet's over before chionging all of them.

Sometimes I wonder what people think of me, especially those that are much much closer. Sometimes, I want to ask them, but somehow or rather, I just can't bring up the subject. Sometimes, I wonder what are my feelings for others. Ah, and I find this blog useful for me to convey such messages at times.

Oh, I just learnt how to drive a boat. XD Something I learnt from driving the boat is that we must be far-sighted. Oh, talking about WWS, this Hua Zhen ah, I feel like killing her.=.= Don't want then just say not coming la, give me one whole paragraph on the recent flooding in Orchard, then main point is the last few words: I'm not coming to WWS. =.= Feel like strangling her after reading it.

I wonder when will I have the courage to ask people in their face.

Bah...since I can't sleep, I shall do a bit of distribution before my eyes close. Bye~~~

~I wonder if you ever had those......................................................~

Tuesday 15 June 2010

Once upon a time, I questioned myself: What is Warcraft for us? What are we trying to find here? This beautiful world...day by day...holds us in its charming illusion. Quests...mates...raiding...items...And what do we have in the end? ...numbers...in database is that it? Is it really the main purpose of what we do? This IS game and like any game...it has purpose to teach and improve a person. Children play games to learn the world, to get knowledge, to know how to communicate, how to look at things around. Maybe we seek this knowledge of something we couldn't find in real life? Like scientists do. They simplify things to see the basis of process clearly. What do we learn in game? How to kill? How to survive? How to press buttons? What is left after we quit the game? They call it...Memories...are everything you have learnt. You will forget all the raids that you did, all the items that you looted, names of places you have been to. But memories will stay and it is not a game, it is real. You feel, you talk, you see, you live. You learn how to feel people and how people feel you. Depending on what you feel, you are becoming different. You change. This is the result of learning. All our memories are made of feeling. Depending on which feelings you put into your memories, depends which person you become. Depending of which priorities you have in game, depends how happy you are in real life. All people are beautiful. Those, who we call "bad" are not actually bad. They simply have no good memories. And it's a pain to be such a person. Help them see the love. Show them frankly all your feelings. Don't be afraid. Give them great memories. And you will see...the radiance of their souls. You will be warmed in the light of their feelings because you will free them. And you will see how the world will change. The real World. You will get the ability to see the very deep of people. And with this ability, there will be no need in games. There will be no need in building beautiful illusions because the real world will always be better. Once upon a time, I questioned myself...What is Warcraft for us?

~adapted from Warcraft Wisdom(Youtube)

A somewhat good paragraph of intriguing words I will say. I think the main point is that know the purpose of things you do(and what others do too) in life. I agree with those words that I put in yellow.

Anyways, it's been awhile since I blogged. These few days, I'm practically tired, partially because of playing WoW late into the night and also because of insomnia. I heard this lady on TV who said this: The definition of being angry is that you are using others' faults to punish yourself. I think that this is pretty agreeable. Was kinda angry over someone's comment recently, but after hearing this, I feel that there's actually no point in being angry some people's faults, even though I'm wrong too. Some people just don't see things the way I see, can't blame them, we have our own perspectives of life. I cannot force others to follow what I do, I just hope that one day, when you look back, it is actually a warning.

Gah~~time for afternoon nap. Bye~~~

Thursday 10 June 2010

I am considering posting some things here. It could do us bad, it could do us good. A very risky option to post it.

Decided to play wow to kill time. Bah, the download is taking so long=.=

LALALA~~~waiting to play X hero siege now, bye~~~

Wednesday 9 June 2010

hahaha......HAHAHAHAHA! so that's how it is huh? What they said is true, hahaha, I'm so amused by my stupidity. That's it I guess, gone with the wind.

Yesterday, my 2 good buddies, LV and SKV talked to me. Managed to understand some stuffs, clear some doubts and have new goals. It's for me to be back to the days when I was calm. Was easily upset over some things that just happened around me. But nonetheless, they are things that passed, no point drooding over them.

Kinda felt sad over the past few ...weeks (I should say), but now I'm happy, com fixed, doubts cleared, what's over is over, gotta move on with a clear mind.

I shall make my changes. BYE~~~

Tuesday 8 June 2010

格格不入. This Chinese phrase basically describe the situation I'm in right now. I don't seem to be able to fit into any group of friends, I realized today. Ah, and my institution tells me more than just SKV, LV and probably Jing Yi the stalker are looking at my blog, someone else or perhaps even a group of them is doing so.

Was thinking whether I should close this blog someday as it appears to be rather redundant, no one comment and not many people are looking at it, which gives me the entire freedom to write anything I want here. The very irony here is others close their blog because there is too many stalkers, but mine is that there is only a handful viewing it. Perhaps when one day I write something like: "This will be the last you see of me.", I might be away, living in my very seclusion somewhere on this Earth, then when my mind is cleared, I'll be back to blog once more. Perhaps. I don't know. I cannot predict what's gonna happen after A level, I don't know what to do after A level. I know things are gonna be so different, yet I'm still that little child I was last year. Perhaps, one day, when I really decide to give up, you'll never see me smiling ever again. I seem to get more and more easily frustrated over the days. Every little thing seems to be able upset me easily. Mood swing huh? You think you know me? You never will, for I have a personality of the clouds, where I cannot be caught and will go my own way. Typical rebellious kid huh?

Got C for chem mid years. Well, not exactly disappointed but not exactly happy over it either. Had a few chapters to focus on over the holidays for chem, math and econs now, so even if this com breaks down, I have something to do, provided I'm disciplined enough :P

This might be just one of my another emo post but it really shows how I am nowadays as compared to previous ones. Really get bored when I can't do anything during this holiday. Bah......bye~~~

Sunday 6 June 2010

Wellness retreat programme was kinda fun, if not for the extreme body weariness and the little sleep I got during the camp=.=

Got an S for GP, well, kinda expected it. I was much more glad that I managed to get a 3 marks for AQ, basically, my aim for mid years for GP paper 2. Got a B for Physics, well, just not so happy about my MCQ score and my carelessness in paper 2. Maths paper 1 got 68, which was like kinda expected.

I kinda find it weird that I'm starting to not look at people in their eyes when they talk, although it was like this last time but it is becoming more and more obvious nowadays.

I was told it was a rumor, but I got this particular feeling that it is a fact.
LV asked me why was I so concerned about such a thing. Ya, I was like what the heck. Partially because I told LV and SKV a few of my little secrets just a few months ago but I don't blame them, after all, it's something which is quite past and it's something that most likely won't happen and something that I will throw away from my mind even if I were them. Partially also because I suddenly just keep thinking back of the things that happened, just feels kinda weird why these things keep running through my mind.

Bah, I guess I should just leave things the way they are, keeping 2 things in mind, study and fitness. A levels is just a blinking few months away. I shall practise what I am already good at and put in more effort into my weaker subjects. I shall make an effort to exercise. I shall send this computer to service soon. I shall score for my exams and become fit. That's my aim this year.

There's still school tomorrow. Need to sleep, bye.

Wednesday 2 June 2010

Got a S for GP. I'm kinda not surprised for I did not put much effort into practising for it.

Mr Bernard Tan's training is somewhat useful but extremely tiring. I'm feeling lethargic even for just the 1st 15 min of Math lecture today, though partially is because the lecturer is boring.

I remembered what I want to say yesterday. I wanted to say this.

My motto in life is to live with no regrets. My own depiction of regrets is doing something that harms others. As such, I will do my utmost best, even to sacrifice myself, to give others happiness. Because my words are somewhat stingy in a way, nowadays, I've become the very quiet person sitting at one side, looking emo at times. I don't wish to spoil any more friendships. I'll just keep my mouth to myself. I will follow my own lead in life, even without BGR, I will move on with just friendships alone. Perhaps, I will be the only bachelor in my class if I were never to mature both physically and mentally in future.

I am bewildered by some events in the past that when recalled, I label them as sweet memories. I don't know if my senses are right, but I know that I have to wait till I mature.

Time is a given thing. Fate is predestined. But the Choice is yours to make.

BYE~~~

Tuesday 1 June 2010

I am but a mere kid lost in its path of life.

Kinda tired after all the Wii and lessons I have been having these days.

Thought of something to post here but just can't remember it now.

So, I shall rest and bye.

Friday 28 May 2010

Saw this on an anime: It's not about what you should do, but what you want to do.

I realised some things today. I realised that my direction in life has never been correct ever since I came into JC. I realised that what I pursue is not relationships but friendships. I realised this blog has been showing all my weaknesses but it's fine. I realised I'm as ordinary as any other human on the streets. I realised that what I have not realised is engulfing my world with darkness. I realised that I'm very blinded to things. I realised that things I posted here are rather offensive and perhaps harmful towards friendships. I realised that it's about high time that I apologize. I realised that having something to do is so meaningful. I realised that what we yearned for freedom is just pushing us toward the cage of less of it. I realised that I should work out more often. I realised that what's beautiful is the memories left behind.

Things are starting to change, my motion will depicts the motions of my life. I will make a change to it. I'm so sorry to those I've harmed, but I don't know who.

Bye~~~

Thursday 27 May 2010

Mid years are finally over! But that's just the beginning of the battle.....

Played pool and arcade with the unwind group yesterday. It's been awhile since we really loosened up, damn shiok!

Sigh~what I foresaw a few months back seems to have come true today. It's so weird. I never think about anyone for quite a few months, then suddenly, when studying for mid years, she just appears in my mind. Few months ago, I had a few dreams about her somemore, these dreams seem to have told me what will happen, and it seems that it did. Who she is is not important, what is important is what has not begun will never begin, things shall be kept the way they are now, perhaps, we will meet again in future, some time, some place.

I saw this in a manga. "Once you are preoccupied, your sword will not be true. See everything in its entirety, effortlessly. That is what is meant by truly 'see'." Perhaps, what I presume above never really happened, all is but an illusion. But I don't know. All that I can do now is to try to truly 'see' things. Somehow, I may be 18 this year but my mind is still as narrow as that of a 3 year old. I think I have to practice looking at things from other points. My personal viewpoints now are what that make me feel so emotional about things.

Listening to Secondhand Serenade just makes me feel so emo.

I don't know who's reading my blog nowadays, do post a tag if you drop by. :)

Rotting away at home now......waiting to catch up with old friends......quite soon I supposed. Bye~~~

"You never know what will happen tomorrow......"

Tuesday 25 May 2010

I feel my life is so crappy. It's revolving about the words "suddenly" and "something".

Everything just seems to happen so suddenly.
Suddenly, I feel so empty.
Suddenly, I feel the great distance.
Suddenly, I don't feel like talking.
Suddenly, I cannot talk.
Suddenly, I feel like I sort of become invisible to others.
Suddenly, I just feel like listening to music and not do anything in a closed room.
Suddenly, I don't seem to be able to walk into others world.
Suddenly, I just feel so emo.

Something seems to be out there, controlling me.
Something tells me before I even did anything, it will never start.
Something tells me I'm walking back that dark path.
Something tells me the world is moving on, leaving me alone in time.
Something tells me I'm more worse off than HL.
Something tells me I did something wrong before, but I don't know what.
Something tells me if I try to make up for it, it's going to get worse.
Something tells me I should use this song to depict my scenario.

Song title: 没那么简单

没那么简单
就能找到聊得来的伴
尤其是在看过了那么多的背叛
总是不安 只好强悍
谁谋杀了我的浪漫

没那么简单
就能 去爱别的全不看
变得实际也许好也许坏各一半
不爱孤单一久也习惯
不用担心谁也不用被谁管

感 觉快乐就忙东忙西
感觉累了就放空自己
别人说的话随便听一听
自己作决定
不想拥有太多情绪
一 杯红酒配电影
在周末晚上关上了手机
舒服窝在沙发里

相爱没有那么容易
每 个人有他的脾气
过了爱作梦的年纪
轰轰烈烈不如平静

幸福没有那么容易
才 会特别让人着迷
什么都不懂的年纪
曾经最掏心
所以最开心曾经

没那么简单
就能 去爱别的全不看
变得实际也许好也许坏各一半
不爱孤单一久也习惯
不用担心谁也不用被谁管

感 觉快乐就忙东忙西
感觉累了就放空自己
别人说的话随便听一听
自己作决定
不想拥有太多情绪
一 杯红酒配电影
在周末晚上关上了手机
舒服窝在沙发里

相爱没有那么容易
每 个人有他的脾气
过了爱作梦的年纪
轰轰烈烈不如平静

幸福没有那么容易
才 会特别让人着迷
什么都不懂的年纪
曾经最掏心
所以最开心曾经

想念最伤心
但却最动心的记忆

This song is in my mixpod. You might want to listen to it. Enjoy. :)

Somehow, I feel that this blog is doing me a favour by allowing me to throw my unhappiness here. That's it, exam is somewhat over, leaving 1 physics MCQ paper tomorrow. BYE~~

Saturday 22 May 2010

Life sucks when it's aimless. Just realised this when there is no mood and energy to study and with my com lagging its way to heaven ever since the infected thumbdrive(thanks to henry's com) was inserted into my com. I realised no matter how tired I am, when I have to do something, I'll make sure it's done, this makes life sucks as the feeling of being overly exhausted is never a good one.

Mid year exams are over soon. I think the highest grade I can get for any of my subjects is a B and of course the lowest, a U. Yesterday could have played pool, but didn't, never mind, wait until the Mid year is over then can go with a light-hearted feeling. Went to Suki Sushi and had the buffet at $22+. Burned a hole in my pocket. Played dota in lag mode, but managed to win because got more people and they are using their best.

Boredom is feeling me. Distance is showing itself. Time is flying past. Temperature is increasing. Our life is making its turn.

Thinking of some things now. Tired too. Bye. :/

Wednesday 19 May 2010

FREAK YOU! I'm suffering from brain damage. I hate this mid year exam. The timing is so inappropriate. A lot of things to memorise yet so little time! I really can't wait for Friday! The day of release! These few days really kept my stress level high. Can't sleep well. Got easily over things which I didn't in the past. Body clock screwed. Today's exam screwed. I gave 17 marks to the examiner for free. Tomorrow will be another screwed day. 2 heavy content papers in a day. !@#$%^&* freak them. They fail in planning exam time table. How can they plan 2 heavy content subjects in a day?! They are so trying to kill people la, make sure people fail, then post-mortem come back nag nag nag. Lame sia. Overly-stressed and totally falling asleep.

Time to go. Nights.

Tuesday 18 May 2010

Lethargic.

Econs die. 3 essays only got 1 I have confidence. Maths great. Mostly can do except for a few. Chem P3 next. Good thing it's in the afternoon, I still have some time in the morning to study. Thursday is a killer. 2 papers. I don't know if there's much to study for Econs paper 1 since it's more on application and not really memorising analysis anymore. Physcis paper 2 is a must to study for it. H1 is the only subject which is now totally covered. Once I can master everything of Physics this MYE, I will be able to concentrate on my weaker subjects such as GP and Econs. That's my hypothesis. Chemistry is also almost completely covered, what is needed is to do more practice to consolidate what I have learned.

Just changed my list of music on my blog! Hope any reader here can listen to them and enjoy. My favourite ones are there. :D

Study and sleep! BYE~~~

Saturday 15 May 2010

GP is over! But I think I fail already. Don't really know what I was doing that day. What's coming up next are the rest of the subjects. Argh! Not enough time. Managed to write out all the chemical reactions in organic chemistry today! Yay! All I need now is to study the other chemistry concepts.
Somehow I feel that Econs will be a breeze as long as I memorise the generic cases for things like fiscal policy. For maths, read through all the pure maths syllabus, all I need now is some practises. I just finished 1/3 of my physics syllabus too, hopefully by thursday I can finish all. According to my estimation, my plan will bring me through this full of killing intent mid year exam. By prelim, I should have mastered my H2 and H1 content subjects, probably a pass or even better grade for Gp. Most likely, by A levels, I should be able to score As for all my subjects. :D I feel so brilliant in planning my movements in future. XD But I fail in planning events though.

Mom was telling me all the things that happened at my part time job area. A lot of things changed. A lot of problems accompanied the changes. Probably, I will go down one day and try to savage the situation, but I got no power to command, what I can do is just use my consumer priority.

Thank god I got friends. Being a loner doesn't feel good. Never want to try that again. Somehow, I find myself getting further and further away from others. Aye, must try to catch up with all my friends. But how? Some things just don't seem to come out of my mouth. Argh! So hard to ask people. Darn, I don't want to move back to my darkness. But, there's no need for enlightenment, I should figure it out on my own.

Perhaps, it's time to play. Bye~~~

Tuesday 11 May 2010

YAY! SPA is over and done with! Except for the theory part.

Did well for my quantum quiz, but I'm still scared for MYE. Revised all my mathematical theories and will be doing some practice maybe tomorrow or next week.

It's so sweet of Ms Khiew and Mr Johnathan Ng to make some encouragement notes for us.

Ms Khiew said this: "Decision and determination are the engineer and fireman of our train to opportunity and success." Persevere on and achieve your goals. Good luck for MYE.

Mr Ng said this: Hey Aaron! Really glad to be teaching you this year! You're a reall nice student, sincere, hardworking, and you persevere during difficult times. Keep on your hard work, keep clarifying your doubts, and you'll do excellently for the A levels! Remember this whenever you're tempted to feel discouraged-"Perseverance is the hard work you do after you get tired of doing the hard work you already did."~Newt Gingrich. Excellence in the A levels is not impossible, and while it may take hard work and lots of study time, it's worth it!

Wah, damn motivated to study already la. But not now, I'm super tired now. What with the standard match later=.=

Anyways, MYE is coming and I wish that all of us will do well in it!

Byes~~~

Friday 8 May 2010

Paradox of cooling: The more you use the aircon or fan to cool yourself, the more electrical energy used, thus more fuel burned, resulting in global warming. Global warming implies weather is hot, thus you will use more aircon and fan, resulting in more fuel burned and thus further worsening the problem of global warming. What a vicious cycle!

Haha, Ms Khiew is really nice. Out of so many teachers, only she asked if we wanted the food.

I can't believe what Boon Han did to me today, got trauma already.......can you believe that he actually leaned against the wall and asked me "Aaron, am I hot?" Wa piang eh...... really will die la=.=

Anyway, did some MCQ on waves and had a good nap, energetic to play now. XD

Oh, Shannon, thanks for your support today during the run, really appreciated it. :D

Friday 30 April 2010

"Even when times seem as though there's no one, friends will still support you even if it is not tangible." This is one of the best encouragement words I heard these days. Thanks Nina! You have my heartfelt appreciation. :)

The Shanghai expo thingy is kinda cool. An interesting performance although it's quite weird somehow, can't really say it.

Just a ride. What the hell does this song sounds man. The school gave us this exercise to help us distress but gave this song's lyrics without the song itself, how nice of them. Although initially I felt that this exercise was kinda useless, but it made me realise my world is not at what I think it is, thanks to Nina's motivation words. Once again, thanks. :)

Today was kinda like zzz all the way. I've been sleepy during lessons and after school, even though I was kinda motivated to do P&C, the 2nd question onwards cannot be done as the lecture has not gone through yet. And I didn't bring my stuffs to revise. I was sitting around with Boon Han and doing all sorts of crazy stuffs such as acting cute etc. Haha, going crazy already.

Sianz, was thinking to type a lot of stuffs but somehow I forgot everything.=.=

Waiting for people to play. Bye.~~~

"It's so different and weird now......~

Sunday 25 April 2010

Haiz, another unproductive day. Have been playing throughout today.

College day performance was fantastic. Halfway through I was almost tearing coz I was deeply amazed by the performance. Excellent performance. The prize presentation was kinda boring other than the p speech. The guest of honour's speech was like what is he talking about? Al is the student of the year 2009. Student of the year was my ambition but i guess it's something that i won't touch forever. But nonetheless, performing well academically and being a person of good character and having values are my aims now.

Hmm, somehow, I feel guilty to convince boon to play since he's not feeling well. So sorry, boon.

That's about what's happening to my life. I love my life. Byes.~~~

~I'm thinking if I should help......~

Friday 23 April 2010

Hmm, people have been telling me that there's really nothing about them......well, I hope that's true.

Today went to SEOUL GARDEN with the unwind gang! Then arcade after eating. I so damn swear the basketball game is damn fun lah! The catching game also kinda fun, though I didn't touch the machine. We got a cookie monster after so many tries! Woots~

Must really thanks Boony for all this, he's the starter of all this la. Of coz not forgetting Arnold who did the namelist and stuffs. Great people! XD

Ayes, time to play! Nights!

Sunday 18 April 2010

Back to post again.

PW got a B. Well, kinda expected it, so ya, stop asking me to not brood over it because I never am.

Sigh~~things just don't seem to go too well for me these days, not academically but socially. It's really weird when I don't know what I have done wrong and people keep giving those kind of "EEE" look. It feels so weird when someone who is still a friend of yours last Christmas and then when school reopens, I become like a sinner. Mind you, I'm not strawberry milk. Darn it, what is it that I have done wrong? I don't understand, please tell me, especially my dear LV, I know you know a lot of things.

Today, even worse, just when I am kinda irritated by these thoughts, my WWS friends just left me there after their Run For Water event. Really, the feeling isn't good. Kinda angry over it, but oh well, the benefits that I gained were some weight training.

Life really sucks. There is so much homework to do and a need to focus on revision, but darn it, the teachers just cannot stop the bombarding of work at us. Yesterday, I tried to do Econs DRQ, but after annotating 1 extract, I can't continue due to my tiredness.

Darn it, I'm so tired, I want to sleep.

Bye.

Thursday 15 April 2010

Yea, I'm back to post but an emo one and about myself.

I may be arrogant but I'm full of pride.

I will do what I know I should and what I shouldn't.

I know I am selfish but I'm for my own gains at none's expense.

I know sometimes I am a bastard but those are just for fun.

I know I'm weird but that's just me, you take it or you leave it.

You can hate me and despise me, for if the path I were to take is a loner one, so be it.

But you cannot make me conform, for this is my life, I walk down it myself.

I aim to be at a distance beyond one's reach but that doesn't mean I aim to have no friends, for I am only a human.

That's about it. PW's result going to come out tomorrow, hopefully I'll get an A.

Nights.

Friday 2nd April 2010

Yay! Finally got some holiday to rest and relax! Well......common test wasn't too bad and wasn't too good for me. No doubt that I actually topped the class in terms of rank pts but I think it's really nth to be proud of. Topics covered for common test were really very very little, especially so when I compare it to that of the mid year exams and even A levels. It's really disheartening to see the results to be so poor, with GP U, Econs S, Phy C. No doubt I have issue in language problem, for econs, I should have gotten a D or even at least a pass, but I didn't. Physics is in fact my strongest field within my few subjects, but I panicked during exams, resulting in me only able to get a C. No doubt a cut above the rest, but seriously, I don't feel good about it. Darn, I really need to study! It's really time to pull up the socks and kick off and fly high.

Sunday 22 March 2010

Soon, a new term begins. The sunrise tomorrow will mark the beginning of the new battle. I still remember the things that I dream about during p rally. Those will be my aims. It's time to mug and throw this laptop away for now at least. The song "Let's hold on together" is a classic and fantastic song. I love it and enjoy singing it. Anyway, I'm still very sleepy and going off to bed soon.

Just to say: HAPPY BIRTHDAY! to Jun Zhe and Boon Han.

Nights!

~Don't lose your way with each passing day......~

Monday 15 March 2010

YEA! I'm back from common test! Common test was a total setback. But I managed to mug throughout! Yay, an achievement! I most probably will get low A for my strong subjects and perhaps E or D for GP and Econs.

Well, the main thing today is the P rally. It was very interesting. The principal managed to inspire me. The takeoff of the day: If you don't know where you are going, it doesn't matter which path you pick. (adapted from Alice in Wonderland) Well, I guess this statement is very true. After much thoughts today, I picked a path. This path is the route of every checkpoint of my dreams. Whatever the results, I will never regret taking it.

Grrr, garena still refuse to work properly, I really wonder why. Oh well, perhaps it's a signal that I shouldn't play now. I burned my weekends on pooling and I now have a chemistry file to rush! Die!

Oh before I forget to mention, I take back my judgement on people such as Ms Khiew and Eileen.

~Don't lose your way with each passing day.~

Saturday 27 February 2010

2 weeks since I blogged, hmm...that's long. Well, it's simply because my life is so boring that I have to accumulate a bit of stories before I post. XD

The main thing that I want to post today is something that is keeping me very down despite my improved results.

Don't know since when I keep seeing this in people's eyes whenever I look at them. Their eyes seem to tell me "You disgust me." True or not, I'm not really sure. But it's super depressing whenever I look at people and they give me that look. This is especially so when I didn't even do or say anything to them. Even if I did, it was most probably unintentionally or was even just a joke. Well, what can I do if it's really so, I can only say "I'm sorry." But, I must argue that everyone hurts another sometimes unintentionally. But I won't continue as it's quite lengthy an argument to begin with.

One other thing that caught me recently: I haven't been smiling.

Last year, Adrian taught me to smile. He said smiling can liven one's spirit. Well, it seems to be very true. During the P's dialogue this week, he said that I got a smiley face. Actually smile can be used to fake one's level of confidence, etc., I think he has mistaken me. But that's not the point. I realised I lost my smile. It seems to take me some time before I can smile heartily in a day. I went shopping today and I found this pencil box to remind me to smile and this book which told me about my personality. I'm a perfect melancholy and peaceful phlegmatic, might as well peaceful melancholy. I'm not sure I appear to be rather melancholy but I know that I've been extremely quiet these days. I asked myself why and I realised it's because I got nothing to say plus the look people keep giving me.

Well, that's about it. I think I need enlightenment. Come to think of it. My age now is the age that determines if one becomes the angel or the demon. I think I'm on the verge to the demonic world. I need enlightenment! Oh well, what is supposed to come will come.

Darn, I want to do homework but my family is playing mahjong! =.=

Goodnight. Will blog once in a while.

Friday 12th February 2010

It's been a while since I last blogged. Yea, finally got the time to blog since it's CNY eve today!

Some happy stuffs over the past few days:

1) I caught up with my chemistry.

2) The orientation was fun and the CG that I was in charge of has very fun people.

3) Science week is a success and finally over!

4) Got more inspired to study econs because of Ms Zeenat.

5) Throat is finally fine!

A few sian stuffs:

1) Keep dozing off in class.

2) The emergency evacuation drill is kinda lame rather than sian because of the college dance.

3) CNY concert isn't that fun as compared to what I got in my Chung Cheng.

Yea, that's about the few things that I have.

Now, it's time for emotional stuffs.

These few days I've kinda been in emo state. I don't know why. Perhaps just too tired or perhaps like what skv says, no confidence. I don't know. These few days, I'm not sure, it seems that the days that passed by me is telling me something. It's as if it's telling me that the world that I'm living in is of darkness. I'm not sure, I keep having this thought that everyone is avoiding me, other than the teachers and some friends of course. I started to wonder, is it because I said something wrongly or did something wrongly. Well, I admit I did. But, that only appears in a few occasions, others were just jokes. I don't know, weird gazes just seem to be firing at me when I look at some people. It makes me wonder if I look like a pervert. It makes me wonder is it because of eczema and then my skin that scares people. I'm not sure. I don't know. Please tell me if my deductions are correct. Having these wild thoughts will really bring me the deepest of darkness. I don't know, one day, I might just lose my sanity and really become a ruthless person. Oh, I realised a few things. Firstly, I cannot bastard people easily for some reasons. Second, pardon for the mushiness, if the world I'm in is of darkness, then my friends, you are the very spots of light that will guide me through the dark. That is why I treasure friendship.

That's about all I feel like pouring out and it really feels great doing so.

Goodnight people.

~Wishing everyone a happy chinese new year, may your studies improve and your health well.~

Friday 29th January 2010

This week has been a tiring week, with 4 hrs of sleep only on Wednesday especially. But overall, it's been great! The orientation was simply just so fun! Like all refinements in case study questions, there are definitely a lot drawbacks this week.

Let's start with the simplest to describe. The orientation. Well, though it's fun and great and understandable for the freshies to not be so enthusiastic, there's this girl, who is a SP, fortunately not in my OG, who is super rude, but as I didn't want to cause too much problems when it's just the 2nd day, I controlled my temper. I believe if Ms Zeenat were to be there, she will roar at this rude girl.

Enough of this rude girl, I trust myself that the next time she's rude, I will go into Ms Zeenat mode.

Now, for some reasons or another, just one action out of pure reaction at any time, any place, pessimistic thoughts come hard at me. Somehow, no matter how hard I try to be optimistic that they aren't thinking in such a way, ten folds the pessimistic thinking hits into my mind. I seriously trust that people won't really think about me in the way I expect them to be pessimistically, but out of no where, the feelings of insecurities just come to me and are persistent. As a result, I have to enter my "cold" mode. But that made things worse. I suddenly think I should enter bastard mode simple because I heard such a phrase on TV: When you are close to someone, you'll never extremely polite to others. It simply means to strangers, as first impression counts, you'll be polite to them. But if you are close, you won't really be so. I guess I have this issue of being too polite when talking to friends and this appears to have a side effect. I guess I'll try being bastardly more often from now on.

Somehow, I feel that my will is getting weaker. I don't know why, perhaps is just because the stress level is building up. I guess I'll need to see the counselor or someone to really help myself get out of this situation. Never in my life, even in O levels, have I felt so weak before.

Fear.

Crap, just received a message to do 4 AQs, really good luck. Goodnight for now. Might be writing on Sunday if not next week. It feels great to pour out my feelings.

~I'm going bonkers soon......~

Sunday 24 January 2010

Today's mom's b'day and I totally forgot about it. A few things to state:

One thing I should be reminded of: Never take 81 to Pasir Ris and then go home from there.

One thing I promise myself: Finish all the homework before orientation begins.

One thing I need: Sleep.

One thing I know about myself: I'm not that likeable like what some people show me.

One other thing I know about myself: I'm selfish.

One thing I'm gonna do: Leave my laptop alone for the next 3 days.

One thing I saw: Pampered kid.

One thing I prefer: Doing things in my own logical manner.

That's about it. Goodnight.

~Let me be......~

Friday 22nd January 2010

Today is finally the end of the week! These few days have been nothing but mugging...great, friday is really so far from monday and monday is so close to friday...what's with the world? Time just seem to pass by so quickly. For some reasons, I got this feeling that I'm kinda avoided by not just one but quite a few people, maybe true maybe not. I suddenly find cheering is so good! It can help me distress when I shout, damn shiok XD Was kinda pissed off by some people recently, but after some thinking, I guess, I have my faults too and I cannot make things go in my way. Shyt, living in this world is like living against current. Push on!

Tired, seriously and badly tired. Tomorrow there's still refreshal camp, hopefully no house meeting after that, got a lot of homework to do. Nights.

~Sleep! I need sleep!!!!~

Thursday 21 January 2010

Today was just like any other day except something happened. The principal made an impactful speech and according to him, he's controlling his temper. He said this: We are like a frog in a pot of water that has gradual increment of temperature. Not reacting immediately to slow increase in temperature, the frog will then slowly be boiled to death.

Simply meaning that we are not active in what we are doing, we only become active when there is something very impacting that happened to us, active in the sense that we change how we do some things etc. And I believe that this is the very particular effect of Significant Emotional Experience. Well, I'm not really sure if I've really been through it but along the way in my life, I did try to make some differences in myself. Looking back at 2 years ago, I think my behavior in doing things did change when I compared to the now me. 2 years ago, I am always the extremely timid little mouse in the class, not saying much things in fact. However, 2 years from then till today, I never would have thought that I would take up the role of an OSL and even a speaker for the wws interest group in SRJC (opps, can't say too much about this part, secret XD). Change is the only constant, somehow, I think I know what it means.

He also made this point straight or something like that: A levels is a test of whether we are able to think intelligent when we formulate answers, whether we can give our own comments on issues, there's thus no final answer. I don't really remember what he said about this part but I think he did mention that A levels is not about having a definite answer which is why copying of model answers is not advised. Pardon me if I made a mistake, kinda tired now. Anyway, whatever he said did gave me the feeling that I should do something for myself.

Anyways, today's house meeting for identity was kinda screwed but for the cheers was definitely great and fun!

I just finished half my pending homework for tomorrow and I'm going to sleep now and go school earlier to complete the rest. Goodnight!

~Hearing is not equivalent to listening......~

Wednesday 20 January 2010

Time really flies. Today is already the 3rd day of the 2nd wk of my JC2 life! These few days really sibei no life. Mug mug mug. Really super tired already. Crap, the homework is still piling up! Wah, today I'm like neglected twice today T.T once during PE and once on the bus by my friend. !@#$%^&* oh well, maybe they just didn't notice me.

I tabulei tahan the econs lecture already, it's really super boring. It's a good thing that I had a power nap this afternoon, if not I'm going to be so zombie can......

Arghh!!! I want to sleep le, nights.

Sunday 17 January 2010

Today I woke up late and went to WWS sleepily. And because I was late, got to bike with this very boring person, sibei sian throughout. But after WWS, went out with Kai Vearn , Hua Zhen and Yee Liang to meet Si Ting and Adam. They ate subway while I drank my coffee. Chit chat a bit and played some arcade games before leaving. The games were kinda fun...but grrr, homework still undone!!!!!

Haizz~~ my new plan, sleep early now, wake up earlier tomorrow and chiong until 5am then go school chiong again.

Right, time to bathe and goodbye!

~Aiseh, the horoscope for facebook seems to be very accurate...~

Saturday 16 January 2010

Today had econs test in the morning. Well, as usual, can't finish it. From my own marking, the marks improved but I'm not happy about it because it's not my skills in answering improved, was merely lucky for getting some simple questions.

Had Aquila meeting after that and doing physics. !@#$%^&* the whole thing is so frustrating and it lasted all the way to 9+++ but it was not really that bad because there were a lot of jokes etc along the way.

Right, there's a lot of homework to complete. Grrr, shit, goodnight.

~Some things just don't go your way, accept the fact...~

Friday 15th January 2010

Today has been a rather smooth day. Managed to talk to a few people and got almost the whole class contact information le. Oh and I managed to push back the meeting for Earth day to Sunday, making myself less stressed up now. Got to do some things for S*STAR and for some reasons or another, it seems that I suddenly got the passion in doing things for the CCA. Crap, tomorrow got econs DRQ test and I'm still not prepared yet. Got to prepare for it soon~~~~~~

For some reason or another, some friends still seem as creepy as ever and some just become more friendly. Anyway, I did made a step into trying to talk to a few people and I think it'll get better as days pass on.

Time to get a bathe and study......Oh, and for some reason or another, some people just love appearing offline=.=

Goodnight!

~Study hard when we should, play hard when we can......~

Thursday 14 January 2010

Today's lessons were kinda alright for me! I managed to mug after lessons for 2 hrs straight! YAY! An achievement! But then, CT period made me feel that my life is so damn boring. Sadly, I think it seems to be getting harder and harder to bond with the class. Darn! Oh I took up the economics rep once more! Under Miss Zeenat! XD Crap...I seriously don't know how I'm going to bond with my classmates when some seem outgoing and some seem super scary. Grrr.....I have been jacked these 2 days like crazy-.- And things seem to be in awkward situation whenever I'm around...Great and I got this feeling that sooner or later, I'm left with no one if this continues on......I think I'll take a step at a time and see how things go...hopefully, I'll be able to bond with the class soon...feeling so left-out....

Oh well, it's all about breaking barriers.....and it's time to bathe and finish off my physics homework so that I can focus on GP tomorrow. :D

That's it, bye.

~Things are really getting out of hand......~

Wednesday 13 January 2010

Today had PE outdoor programme! Yea, the games were kinda fun but strangely, I don't feel much bonded to the class. There were some bonding though. Got to know some classmates better. That's great! Tomorrow I'll get their contact number and email address. Had Mac for the day with some Old Chang Kee and potato soup at home. Eh? I ate so little today?

Was kinda pissed off when filling the form for FAS. Oh well, not much a problem anyway. Tomorrow school will resume, sad but there are very few actual lessons. Only like 1 hr of phy, 1 hr of econs lecture and tutorial and 1 hr of gp! The rest of the day seems to be kinda slack for me.

Hmm, recently the pessimistic thoughts just keep getting into me and I don't know why. Irritating. And it's been the 4th time since I got such a dream recently. I guess I'm a bit mad already. Haizz what to do? I don't know. How I wish I can read people's mind. It's damn frustrating when I don't know what people are thinking about me. ARGH!

Anyway, it's so late already, time for the bed. Goodnight! XD

~Focus, focus, focus......~

Tuesday 12 January 2010

I feel so god damn petty today. I have kinda been emoing these 2 days and I don't know why. Maybe I'm just tired. I seriously don't know. There was this feeling that told me to not be with them for awhile. Strange. Hopefully tomorrow's PE outdoor programme will make me feel much much better than what I'm feeling now.

School was kinda okay for me these 2 days. Oh dear, got Ms Zeenat and Mr Lee again! Gotta work hard and not disappoint them XD A lot of homework still undone but hopefully I can finish them as soon as possible.

Time to wait for people to come online and ask them for lunch XD

~The distance becomes a mile away......The ice has started to form......~

Sunday 10 January 2010

The finale of the long holidays. Ending the day with sleep, wws, eat and homework. Talking about today reminds me of the work out Kaivern gave me today......crap, speed until half dead. Pool abit before we left though XD

The past 2 days were great in the OSL camp. Aquila won, but the real one is gonna be during the orientation...Damn tired after the OSL camp, I'm still under rejuvenation now...Energy breakdown, shout until die. do until die....tired but fun, but seriously, half-dead. Don't feel like typing out the details though....XD

Shyt, school is gonna start in tomorrow, freak! A lot of homework still not done.

Bye.

~My madness rose again......~

Thursday 7 January 2010

Today is the 1st day of the OSL camp! Somehow, my tiredness made people think that I'm not really enthusiastic.....oh well, perspectives, something shown to me on the art museum trip. But that told me something, as well as what Mrs Ang said, I need to look more enthusiastic so that my juniors will be as enthusiastic as me on the orientation days. The games were actually quite fun today except for a few which I find are not fun enough like the entanglement one...not so entangling after all...

I realise courage is one important thing in this leading of juniors. Shame is nothing in front of leading. I remember watching this show called Bai Quan Nu Wang whereby the actress said this translated: Courage is everyday's build up. I guess that's how it should be translated. Somehow, I lost the courage built up within me thru the past years....or maybe i don't even have them in the first place...

One happy thing: I got the goat doraemon! Damn cute can XD

Another happy thing: The sarawak peeps are back!

One sad thing: Lost my impulse during games...paiseh....

One funny thing: The laughing is the best medicine game didn't made me laugh.

Another funny thing: The walk-in actions is gonna be damn joke. But I believe it is gonna work!

One angry thing: I have not completed my homework.

One irritating thing: I damn tired now.

One mad thing: 6 guys only in the OSL aquila team. The rest girls.

One decided thing: I need to be enthusiastic about the orientation.

One last thing: Tomorrow's gonna reach school by 7.15am.

Goodnight. :D

~Love yourself, then can others love you...~

Sunday 3 January 2010

Today, I'm going to take my 400 bucks for merit bursary. Guessed it's gonna be damn boring to wait for the guest of honour to arrive.

Now, I'm going to add in the part I promised yesterday. (I kinda feel guilty if I don't do this)

To my secondary school friends who walked me through my very lonely secondary school life:

James-Yeah, you are one good hellish joker, but a good friend of mine. Without you, I don't think I'll be able to suan people as good as now lolx and never able to have grown interest in Chinese books even though I was much more powerful in Chinese than in English. We have walked Chung Cheng together for 4 years straight but without you, I can never imagine how enjoyable school life can be. Thanks man.

Alden-You are one good host I have met. I think I gotta say sorry instead of thank you. Sorry for going to your house so frequently and as a result disturbing your family. But I still gotta thank you for your hospitality and allowing me to enjoy at your house. Yea, you and James had walked with me throughout my secondary school life for 4 years and it will never be so fun without you 2, I must say that. Though we haven't been keeping in touch throughout 2009, I still wish you a good life in Pioneer if I'm not wrong and thereafter of course.

Edwin-My gaming buddy. Yea, you've been my soul mate even till today although we don't really talk that much throughout 2009. You're kinda fun to be with and a good listener to what I always got to tell you. You've been a great host too. Always allowing me into your house to play. Someday, after A level, I will go your house again. XD I don't have much to tell you here but I do wish you a good life in JJC and thereafter.

Clarence-My Chess Mate. Yea, though I don't think you'll see this, I still gonna tell you what I should be telling you. You, together with James and Alden, had walked me through Chung Cheng for 4 years. Throughout those few years, it has been great to play with you. I heard that you have retained this year. Though I didn't really call you up, I think you should know what's best for you. Even though it may or may not be your wish to retain, retaining doesn't mean anything, it's just another year of meeting new people and reinforcing what you already had in your brains. Yea, that's about it and I hereby wish you a good life in TPJC and thereafter.

Adrian-My listener and ice breaker. Yea, though we've only spent time together for a year as a friend, you've been a really important person in my life. I think without you, I can never talk to the rest in the class such as Hui Qi, Clarissa, etc. Without you, I think I would have gone through 2009 in the most miserable way. You taught me how to smile once more. I guess you are one angel on this Earth, bringing happiness to each and every one around you. It has been great to have a heart-to-heart talk with you. Yea, you are indeed a great friend. And thus, I wish hard that you have a good life in NYJC and thereafter.

To the rest-Sorry, I don't think I got that much to tell you guys, but it is still a fact that you guys brought light to me. You guys did impact me in some way or another and I really thank you guys to be about me and sometimes care about me. I'm glad about it. I do wish that you guys will lead a good life no matter where you are.

Now, to my dear 1s18 friends who have walked me through this treacherous year of 2009:

Shannon aka SKV-The first person I met in 1s18. You are the light among the class and being about you really makes me happy. Your irritating jokes and actions and words are what really brings laughter to us, or at least me if not others. Yea, though we didn't talked like for months since that incident but I'm still glad that you are willing to talk to me ever since PW brought us together. Playing with you is really great. You are one speed learner, making my life in game better ya know. Yea, we had a few heart-to-heart talk sessions and it really makes me feel much much better after telling you what I kept. But, sometimes when I ask you about yours, I mean after you contextualize la, it makes me feel like a kaypo. Not a good feeling. Lolx. Yea, but I hope you really don't mind it. Sometimes I also don't get what your head is thinking. Such as the recent big thing I told you, one moment you said nothing. One moment you said something. I don't get it but I know what you may be telling me. Yea, it will just be nothing. We are going to be in the same class next year still. Let's run through this 10 months marathon and go to the university.

Boon Han aka LV-My listener for the year of 2009. You are one great person to be with. You listen, give advices, explain some stuffs and joke. Watching you and Shannon bullying each other is really one fun thing. Lolx. Yea, you are also one great player too. Yea, you are right about PW. It bonds the Vs together. And I'm really glad about it. I can never forget the moments we spent together as the Vs. It's really great. Yea, you told me how you viewed relationships and I must say I agree to what you think. After all, I can't change how you think. Oh yea, you are going to be in the same class as me next year too. Let's run through this 10 months marathon and go to the university and slim down at the same time. :D

Nina aka FAC-Since you didn't want to be called FV, FAC will the next best alternative. Lolx. Looking at how you study really makes me worry for myself. You are one hardworking person can. I think if we didn't study together in the canteen, I most probably will have never even touched my holiday homework at all. Lolx. I must say I failed in my time management though I did so much planning in front of you before school ended. Yea, we'll be in the same class next year too! A 10 months marathon like what I said and hopefully we'll end up in the university. Oh yea, shed some fats!

Mei Ying aka Donkey-You are one great PW mate I ever had. And how can we forget? You are one great gossiper as well. XD This year, PW has been great with your help. Without you, we most probably won't be able to find that many SOIs and do well for the filing of the GPF. Your story telling skills are excellent can. I can still remember the times when you always open gossip circle. Watching JZ and you bullying each other is really a fun thing. Yea, you have shown me how women can fascinate over hair bands. You have shown me that there are many places that I have never been to. You have shown and told me many things that I don't know. You are like a big sister to me. But, sometimes, your decelerness really makes me want to open your brain and see how you think can. Lolx. Yea, we'll be in different classes next year. But still, a 10 months marathon awaits our challenge. Do work hard and aim high. Wish that you'll make it to the university.

Jun Zhe aka FUV- One great PW leader. Sometimes, you appear to be indecisive but you will always make the right choice in the end. That's something good. But then again, sometimes, I don't know what you are thinking. You appear cheerful on the outside, but your heart has never been opened to any of us. Something you need to change is that emo feeling that you give. It may not be on purpose but then again, we can see that you are emoing, so don't lie about it. If you really wish to hide your emoness, just smile. Smile is something that reduces the emo feeling that you may give to others. I don't know if you have made the right choice in taking the re-exam and henceforth making it to JC2, but I assure you that you need to put in 300% of the effort that you have put in 2009 to make it to the university. One suggestion to help in your STM, you can try this. 24 48 116. 24 means within 24 hrs after you learned smth, read through it again. 48 means 48 hrs, 1st 1 means 1 week, 2nd 1 means 1 month and 6 means 6 months. Try it. It is a method for long term memory. I do wish your best for A levels and henceforth.

Ly aka Aunty-I think I never told you this before. I was damn scared of you can before we got bonded by PW. After bonding with you, I found it fun to be about you. All the jokes and from nowhere highness really makes life fun with you. Though we didn't really talk that much, but I guess you are one really really nice person to be with. Though we'll be in different class next year, I still wish for your best in the A levels and henceforth.

Emily the Awesome-You are one awesome lady. When it's the time to joke, you joke. When it's the time to be serious, you are. I guess PW in 2009 couldn't have been better without you. You helped us do a lot of editing this year and helped made a lot of important decisions. Yea, I know you're gonna retain this year. Painful but it will definitely be another fated period in your life. I hope you will be able to reinforce your knowledge this year and make it to the As and thereafter to the university.

To the rest-I'm sorry but it's really tiring to think of so much to type. Perhaps another time if I can. But nonetheless, it has been great to have met you guys. You guys taught me many things and impacted me in some way or another. I do hope you guys can make it to the university.

Yea, I feel much better after typing so much to tell them how I feel. It's time to play with SKV for awhile before I sleep. :D

~I will keep it to myself......~

Saturday 2 January 2010

Today is the 2nd day of 2010!!!! This is the 1st post of 2010 XD

To spend the day in a more relaxed manner, I watched Autumn's Concerto! Damn touching can XD

After watching, I kinda feel sad for myself. I don't know why either.

Somehow, I finally know why people treat me in the way they do. But, somehow, those thoughts just linger about my mind even though I know they will never be true. But, I guess, what's not mine will never be mine and most probably, the thoughts will just go off as they get diluted away. I think somethings are meant to be secrets as they will never to be told to others.

Anyway, emo stuffs should not be what I should be thinking about now. Life is still best to be passed happily but sometimes with that little bit of sadness. Tomorrow gonna collect 400 bucks as merit bursary XD YAY! but school's gonna just start the next day (I take it as so) since I have to go back for the whole week. No life next week T.T But, it's good for me to practise time management once more, so it won't be that bad.

Hmm...after reading a few blogs, I realised I should put some thank you stuffs here, but I will do it another time.

That's it I got to tell today. A brand new year awaits our arrival to pass.

~May my madness just end today......~