Saturday 25 September 2010

Counting down to 5 weeks before the battle starts.

I feel tired. I'm starting to lose faith nowadays. Apparently and unknowingly, I'm going back to the past me again. Living in uncertainties sucks. Never before have I felt so useless and helpless. I don't even know what I do offends people or not. Sometimes, when I think I offend others unknowingly, I feel so guilty even though I know sometimes they don't mind. I don't know if it's just me, but I find that I would miss my friends from JC more than my primary and secondary school friends. Damn it, I don't want to lose any more friends. BYE~~~

Tuesday 21 September 2010

While I'm still awake, I decided to post some stuffs here. Passed these 2 days in pain, depriving of my usual afternoon nap. Oh, but I finally got my MP3 or MP4, whatever you call it, but YAYNESS!!!

Based on intuition, something is definitely off and I think I know what it might be about. I'm waiting for the day when someone decides to tell me or when I finally find the chance and probably a better phrasing of what I wish to understand to avoid harming friendships.

To one of my best friend in SRJC (if he were to read this): I wished I could be of help, but I'm afraid that I am deemed to be too kaypo. But don't be too stressed, you always got me (I sound so desperate to want to know =.=) and boon and htht group and many of your close friends you can speak to, like duh. As of now, I can only tell you to focus on A levels but don't be too stressed. Hmm, it feels so like last year, if you know what I mean.

Darn, still can't find a less offensive way of expressing myself as much as I try to avoid doing so. Oh well, trying is the only way out. Hmmm, probably I am a little too proud recently......BYE~~~

Tuesday 14 September 2010

I feel weird and I think I'm acting weirdly recently, but I was told I wasn't weird. Hmm, probably just thinking too much then. Probably I'm feeling that sense of guilt towards my teachers and classmates. I'm sensing some things but probably I'm really thinking too much. Ahh, I'm damn tired....BYE~~~

Wednesday 7 September 2010

Just got back Prelim results.

GP: S :( I'm going to work on it.

H1 Physics: A :) Didn't expect this since I got my P2 results, thought would get a B at most.

H2 Econs: E :) Finally pass it, even though the marker was kinda lenient for my essay qn 4 actually.

H2 Math: D :( Getting worse. I better buck up.

H2 Chem: B :) I'm happy over this.

PW: B

MT: A

Overall: 60+, Almost there and I really need to pick up my pace already. BYE~~~

Saturday 4 September 2010

I really want to believe we never walk alone, but somehow, I find my future to be quite lonely. Sigh~~~ we may be laughing together, playing together, eating together and mugging together now, but what happens after that? What's gonna happen after A levels? Probably play together and stuffs. Then NS will come and new friends will appear. And then we split again to work. And then family and stuffs. People can come together easily but it feels so difficult to split as emotions come into play. I just wonder if we will recognise each other along the street as we walk through our life 10 years down the road. I just wonder if we will continue to have gatherings 10 years later. Oh, I will miss all these laughings and fun that I'm having now. This isn't One Piece where we have a common aim to move towards and journey together and stuffs. Hmm, probably it's because I feel aimless. Haiz, emotions at play. Well, well, we'll see about that when the time comes then, BYE~~~