Monday 27 December 2010

The candle lights of Chirstmas have extinguished as those for whom birthday is today lights up.

18 years have passed since I was born a baby in East Shore Hospital in 27 December 1992. Being the youngest in my family, I naturally received lots of showers of love and care from my family. I cannot remember much of my baby life, only bits and pieces here and there and it's less than brief. I guess that's natural for all of us. I don't remember myself as a baby playing with toys, but I remember how I learned to walk. Thinking back now, life's greatest lesson is your first lesson of humankind: to learn to walk. Every time you fall, yes it hurts, but you must bring yourself again and continue trying till you succeed. Interesting, isn't it?

I can briefly recall my time in nursery and kindergarten whereby I have fun with my then friends but we never meet again after that. Then comes primary education whereby I studied in Temasek Primary School. Initially located at New Upper Changi Road, currently located at Bedok South Avenue 3. I can remember the bad part of my primary school days mostly as there weren't really much good ones. I find my life there pretty neutral. Probably I should thank these bad memories as they did help me in some way or another.

Scored 245 for PSLE. Pretty good score in my opinion. Went to Chung Cheng High Main School for my secondary education. I managed to barely scraped through O levels as I really suck at humanities subjects and my English language wasn't very impressive either. There, I met my bunch of weird logic friends whom still maintain close contact with me today. I also had friends with more normal logic but are also more bimbo-tic and more enthusiastic in gatherings

With a mere 17 L1R5 points, I came to Serangoon Junior College, but with not much regrets. For more information, please read the blog archive. It's basically my diary of my rich life in this awesome school , I'm kinda lazy to summarise it here.

My motto of life is to live without regrets. Should I have any regrets in life before, I will never commit the act that made me regretted again. BYE~~~

Wednesday 22 December 2010

I suddenly feel like working. But I don't know what to work as. I am especially interested in human behavior and psychology and detective work nowadays. Maybe it is just because I watched too much detective shows over the past few days. After finishing all these detective shows, I don't know what to do next, aimless again in life. About 1 and a half month left to NS. Such a long period of time. Working part-time does seems like a good idea. But I don't to work just for the money or mere experience in work-life. I want to work for my personal interest. But I don't think I can find such jobs in Singapore, especially part-time.

I know I haven't grown up much yet, and there's this self-perception that I am still a child. I know I haven't fully understand the purpose of life yet and I know neither do you readers. I wish there isn't this forced army thing, for I want the time to explore the world to find that purpose of my life. Sometimes I do agree with my friend's weird but magnificently logical theories about this world. Perhaps the truth hurts more than the lie, but I prefer chasing for the truth.

An aimless bee will bang itself into the wall, thereby hurting itself. But no matter how times it hurts itself, it will always find its path back to its hive. Never give up in life, home is always the sanctuary u find best. My theory. BYE~~~

Tuesday 14 December 2010

Impersonating people seems to be my forte. Monkey sees, monkey does. Same idea.

Anyway, that's not the point of this post. Recently watched some detective dramas and found interest in human behavior. Fate does seem to know how to work its way around. I have been an observer for a long long time and recent dramas watched brought me the interest to deepen my understanding and interest in human behavior. Elated that I have something that can finally interest me over the holidays, a sharing here should be done. :)

Regrettably, passport extension is not successful and a new passport is to be made, rendering the trip to Bali with my family not possible. Maybe it is a good thing, my prophecies seem to be true sometimes. Probably just Deja Vu. Anyway, I'm going to get books on human behavior and enjoy them over the holidays. BYE~~~

Saturday 11 December 2010

When I piece everything together, I finally realised what was happening that is about me. I'm trusting my instincts. Guess I won't say much here. Watched many dramas on pps to live through the week. Don't know what's next. BYE~~~

Thursday 9 December 2010

Life is so boring when there's nothing to do. I stay at home look at com, thinking what I should play. Every game that flashed through my brain was marked boring. I turn on the TV look through the menu for the different channels. Many are repeats. I read books to pass my days, yet when I stop, there's nothing to do again. I miss the studying days. Somehow, I think A levels is not that difficult. What's difficult is the life after that. BYE~~~

Monday 6 December 2010

Dreams are for people to chase dreams are the things that keep people alive, probably not sane but definitely alive, be it a short-term or a long-term one.

Just when I really started to understand the world and when my life was filled with fun and laughter, a sudden feeling of emptiness filled me. Yes, exams are over. Celebrated it. Had a fun-filled time for the past few days. But now as friends are starting to fly all over the world, I remain in Singapore as usual but this time restlessly. I just can't find anything to do. I can't find the joy in games anymore either. I suddenly just find life so boring. I feel that I'm losing my sanity, but I'm consciously holding on to it.

They don't have to say it, but I know people are shunning me and definitely finding me weird or something since I can't find what's wrong with being quiet. F.M.L. BYE~~~

Thursday 2 December 2010

It's over. Officially.

This week's schedule is very packed. Today is the only day off for me to come here to blog. First, a summary of what happened and what's going to happen over the week.

29/11/2010

Physics P1 in the afternoon which marks the end of it all officially. Then went to Jun Zhe's new house, awesomely beautiful place, for steamboat, mahjong, texas poker and asshole Big 2.

30/11/2010

Went shopping to complete my prom clothes, basically a tie and a pair of shoes which can still be used in future. Then went to chalet for BBQ, COD, some mahjong, some PS3 games and then watch the sunrise which is blocked by clouds.

1/12/2010

Went to Kbox with FG friends. Knew more songs and am downloading them now. Then went back chalet for night cycling.

2/12/2010

Here I am, blogging after a good sleep.

3/12/2010

Prom night. Should be damn awesome. Probably the last day to see my 2s16 mates before they fly here and there around the world. Maybe followed by Kbox.

4/12/2010

Movie and dinner with S*STAR people but I think mostly JC2s next year.

5/12/2010

WWS from 11am to the evening, ending with some celebration or whatever.

Then I suppose I shall enjoy my break at Singapore for the rest of the month.

Here comes a bit of emotional stuffs.

As usual, I'm sensing some things about me, based on instincts. The feeling is getting stronger. So be it. Sometimes I feel like going to a corner of a room and just cry out loud. I'm tired of putting up a strong front, yet I can do nothing but only show an expressionless face. I feel that I'm losing friends yet I can do nothing about it. I try my best to savage friendships. I quietly controlling my temper. Sometimes I wish I can just release my control over it, but the consequences are unimaginable.

I want to take a break for now. I have had enough. BYE~~~