Some happy stuffs over the past few days:
1) I caught up with my chemistry.
2) The orientation was fun and the CG that I was in charge of has very fun people.
3) Science week is a success and finally over!
4) Got more inspired to study econs because of Ms Zeenat.
5) Throat is finally fine!
A few sian stuffs:
1) Keep dozing off in class.
2) The emergency evacuation drill is kinda lame rather than sian because of the college dance.
3) CNY concert isn't that fun as compared to what I got in my Chung Cheng.
Yea, that's about the few things that I have.
Now, it's time for emotional stuffs.
These few days I've kinda been in emo state. I don't know why. Perhaps just too tired or perhaps like what skv says, no confidence. I don't know. These few days, I'm not sure, it seems that the days that passed by me is telling me something. It's as if it's telling me that the world that I'm living in is of darkness. I'm not sure, I keep having this thought that everyone is avoiding me, other than the teachers and some friends of course. I started to wonder, is it because I said something wrongly or did something wrongly. Well, I admit I did. But, that only appears in a few occasions, others were just jokes. I don't know, weird gazes just seem to be firing at me when I look at some people. It makes me wonder if I look like a pervert. It makes me wonder is it because of eczema and then my skin that scares people. I'm not sure. I don't know. Please tell me if my deductions are correct. Having these wild thoughts will really bring me the deepest of darkness. I don't know, one day, I might just lose my sanity and really become a ruthless person. Oh, I realised a few things. Firstly, I cannot bastard people easily for some reasons. Second, pardon for the mushiness, if the world I'm in is of darkness, then my friends, you are the very spots of light that will guide me through the dark. That is why I treasure friendship.
That's about all I feel like pouring out and it really feels great doing so.
Goodnight people.
~Wishing everyone a happy chinese new year, may your studies improve and your health well.~
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