Tuesday 17 November 2009

Today had only econs and chem lecture :) Can understand them all, I feel so glad XD but there was a 3 hrs of free time in between...LV, SKV, Ernest, Mei Ying, Nina, Hui Ling, Jacinthe, Reginald and Eileen went to Kovan for a meal at the White Tangerine but it's not opened :( then had McDonald's Big Breakfast for breakfast of course XD oh ya today's Queesnland Core Skill test was easy, only had problem with the English parts, no flair for literature as much as I enjoy having literature lessons with Mr Lee Er Ke....that's about it for today's journey, not sure if there's going to be any games tonight XD

Time for some reflections of life!!! Today's theme: Change

This was something which I intended to blog about a few days ago but there were some stuffs which are important and I may forget them easily so I blogged those first. Anyway, some will see that the theme is the same as that of Taylor Swift's song in the fearless album. I think this year has been an eventful year for me. I experienced a lot of emotions, be it sad, angry or happy. A lot of things this year changed my thoughts...greatly. Previously, I had never thought so deeply into my life before, my life was just about morning wake up, go sch, play chess, eat, go home, sleep. That's it. Now, my life has become much more injected with life. I must say thanks to 1s18 whether or not you are my friend, an enemy, a joker, an attention-seeker or even that person (though I didn't want to mention), and of course the teachers and oh yes, how can I ever forget Adrian. Without them, I think I'm still living in my own world now, they made me think why I'm in JC. That person told me that I was childish...then, I was still thinking why...now I think I understood it when I thought back and looked at others...

I realised a lot of things just don't go the way you expect it to be, which is what I said before, it's fated. Initially, I was pessimistic about life...but I realised that being pessimistic about life just isn't right because it cannot make things go your way. I'm not saying that being optimistic about life is going to make things go your way but it's just that being optimistic about life can actually greatly reduce the damage dealt back at you when things go the unexpected/unwanted way, which is why, I guess, my good friend wasn't that sad about the result...I've changed my mindset to become an optimistic person...

Last time, I used to emo a lot that many people know when I emo......oh btw, my dear LV, I wasn't emoing today, was simply tired due to lack of sleep!!! Come to think of it, I'm starting to not like people who emo, just like my LV......I think emoing is fine if it's within a day......but not on a daily basis......some people emo a lot but they sometimes choose not to admit it......it gives the impression that you are hiding something...then they will start to guess...and a lot of suspicions...that's bad...

As I was walking back to school after McDonald's, I closed my eyes and I walked because I know that there's nothing in front as I walk...but, once I closed my eyes, a few seconds later, I will tend to open them, tried a few times, same results. I suddenly realised that life is so full of uncertainty, you know that there's no obstacles in front yet, you just don't feel safe, I can't explain this, somehow it got to do with the things that have happened around us...I also concluded that we have been closing our eyes as our life bring us through...we have been wandering aimlessly in our life, in the end, achieving nothing...I sort of realised a life without any aim is not a life...In life, there's something you aim for...without this aim, you can never have this personality or even action...

I don't really know what I'm talking about today...seems so confusing to myself too...but nonetheless, the main points are there, it's up to you on how you think about them...

Perhaps, we should just aim high in life, then can we be what we really are...

I seriously don't know what I'm writing, guessed I'm too tired for all this, I'll take a break now :)

~I don't know...I think...I'm ILL...~